You ever have those days where everything seems normal but the world around you is completely upsidedown and you're fully aware? Yeah. It's ok if you haven't. It's just some stupid opening to some stupid book. Nothing more. Nothing less. It's just one of those nights where I'm uncomfortable in my own skin. The worlds best bed would not bring the comfort I would need to welcome sleep right now. Only an out of body experience or a renewal ritual would help me right now. I'm just laying here, waiting for my drugs to set in. Just waiting for the sweet release of mind and spirit. Forced as it may be, this rest may just be what I need. Tomorrow I will be able to tell, for tomorrow will tell all.

Really, it's like sitting in the back of a rollercoaster. Not strapped in and not phased by the bumps and turns. Everything around you would scare any normal person, but you're too lost in yourself to notice. You're set on automatic. Just doing as you're told, but not even noticing that the world is still turning. Not lost in thought, per se, but lost in yourself. You hold the key, but you have absolutely no desire to turn the knob. The world is what it is. ...And you want no part.